Meagan

The two newest additions to the Villescas Family =)

Note to self. Haha, I love Seinfield.

Anyways....monique, emma and bo are coming home!!!! Just for about 4 weeks and then they are heading back to CO but im really excited for their arrival.

Peace out!

Meagan

A girl in my bible study posted this verse on one of my other web pages.....He still continues to amaze me with His timing...

"consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. that man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double minded man, unstable in all he does"

My Pride, faith, trust, stubbornness and patients have been tested to the extreme in this oh so wonderful month of May...

A few weeks back, I fell and dislocated my left arm. I also fractured my radial head, leaving little pieces of bone floating in my arm. My first doctors visit a few days later (after spending hours in the ER) was an emotional one...I know, me? Emotional?.....go figure. I wasn't prepared for what the repercussions were of the fall. I thought, I'll go in...They'll cast it....a few months later....all fixed! But I wasn't ready to hear them say that this was a very severe lifetime injury.

Apparently this wasn't a normal fracture. The radial head is at the joint of my elbow...pretty much the base of mobility. The only way to fully fix it would be surgery but there are some risks with that, of course. I would be all for the surgery but they said that there is a huge possibility that while my arm is exposed during the operation, that my arm could dislocate again. If that was the case then they would have to cut off my radial head and replace it with a metal implant. So I would go into the surgery not knowing if I would come out fixed or with an appliance implanted in my body. If I don't do the surgery now, I will definitely need the surgery when I get older and without a doubt, I will need the metal implant.

With or without the surgery, the end result of the mobility in my arm will remain the same. I was told that I would never gain full flexibility in my arm and would be limited to what I can do. A lifetime injury, I wish they would stop saying that.

On June 2nd, I get the plaster splint off which I've had for almost 3 weeks now. When this one comes off, I will get a ROM brace (range of motion) and its determined that I will have that for 6 months. As I go through therapy, the hinges will be released little by little until I won't need the brace anymore. A few good things about this new contraption is that it's a lot lighter than what I have on now. My wrist won't be constricted anymore; I can take it on and off when I take a shower and change. Right now I have to put a plastic bag on my arm while I take a shower and I can only wear t-shirts and jeans. Now i will be able to change then place this terminator looking thing over my clothes.

As silly as it may seem, im really looking forward to getting the new brace. I can't even begin to explain the frustration I've had. I can't do my own hair; I couldn't button my own pants at first. I know that this is all going to be a process and im already feeling better but, it really forced me to be more open to people helping me. If anybody really knows me I have this "I can do it on my own" attitude. Sometimes it comes in handy and in this case not. I've lost 10lbs since I got hurt and all because if I couldn't open something, I just wouldn't eat and if someone tried to open something from me, I would grab it back from them. Not rudely but never the less, I needed to learn how and when to ask for help, and this situation most definitely did that for me. Im a photographer so of course, im a little nervous what this will do for that area in my life But, as soon as I learn how to rock the new brace, I believe that I will be better then before.

My friends and Family are amazing. My roommates and Best friends have really helped me out. Angela and Alicia have been an encouragement throughout, Blake for taking me to my doctor's visit and just coming over, sitting with me and giving me the best CD ever!  My family for taking the time to come see my lame ass in the ER at 1 in the morning lol.....I couldn't of asked to be blessed with greater life endeavors

So now that im done being all sappy.......Can you tie my shoes??

PEACE!

No matter how over it I get or how much time passes, this day will always force me to focus on some deep reflection. Definitely a positive thing. Every Year on this date I write a letter to myself according to where I am in life and read the letter I wrote myself the year previous, on this date. Why April 29th?....Well if you don't know by now what significance this day holds, then i guess you never will....for that story is long gone. But it did hold some major significance and provoked this new tradition.

I ask myself the normal questions....Have I grown? In what ways? And if not, then I know that I need to change some things, make some sacrifices and figure out (through God) what it is that I'm not fully giving up to Him. Its always a good thing when you take the time to reevaluate an area in your life but, with the good comes the bad as well so you have to be open minded to what actually gets revealed to you in this meditation of self reflection. I think this year i ll take more than just this day to think about everything just cause there's a lot of events and circumstances that happened this past year to where I need to sit and give some honor and glory to Him but then there are other things where I need to come to God as a child and ask "why?"

Heres to April 29th 2009!

So this is an update on that guy I randomly met at church a few weeks back. If you read my blog on "Acts 1:8" then you can get caught up from there...

So I had coffee with Eric that week, just only 3 days after our encounter. We sat and talked for about an hour or two, shared our stories more in depth and sat there in awe as we didn't understand why God would bring us together in such a way that was so strong. I had to hold back a lot of emotion. My fear of God was heightened that day.

A few days later, I got an email from him saying "Thanks for meeting with me the other night, its greatly needed and is already changing my out look on things"  A few days after that he wanted to get together again so we did. Saw a movie and had some laughs...then came back to our initial comfort zone which is talking/debating about Christianity and the religion in its self. Eric: " I gotta say, I really love our conversations" as Do I! its not very often that you come across someone who is willing to debate and talk on such a HOT topic.

I love meeting new friends this way, makes it so much more powerful and a God blessed endeavor.

PEACE!

Im officially a resisident of Irvine. I have to admit that its a bit strange to be living away from "home". One of my younger sisters moved out as well so now its just my mom, dad and little brother at the house. Growing up in a family of 7 was always loud so this is a vast change for the parentals.

Im excited that my apartment is super close to work. In my first week living here I only used a quarter tank of gas vs a whole tank..thats AMAZING!! and nice on my budget. I went to the market and filled up the cupboards and frig. It feels nice to be on my own again....and this time.....doing it the right way =)